I am the walrus

Or I’d like to be the carpenter, at least. But the song’s been stuck in my head for days, especially after having seen the mini series ‘Alice’ from the Syfy channel. The show was fantastic and made me fall madly in love with the Hatter. You should check it out if you can. Even more so if you’re a big big fan of Alice in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass!

Nothing special has happened recently, so I’m afraid I haven’t really got anything to say other than the past 2 nights I’ve had to attend some Christmas parties for my parents and…they weren’t all that bad, I guess. It gets a bit awkward, of course, when the oldies lose themselves in their little adult world. Good thing I’ve got siblings to keep me company. These days honestly don’t feel much like Christmas to me, though.

Anyway, here’s a little doodle to share. Sorry for the half-assed attempt at colouring. I went and got started then realised that I didn’t want to go through with it as I have neither a tablet nor a mouse. Fail.

Click to enlarge!

Good night!

Filed under: Everyday Life, Illustrations, Rants/Raves, TV , Alice, Christmas, Fictional Crush!, Hatter, Illustration, The Beatles

Cold caramel macchiato via air conditioner

I am once again sitting in my Merchandising Math class, bored out of my wits (but I must stress this point once more: I like my teacher). A classmate of mine is explaining how she got to her final answer (predicting and planning for 2010 sales based on figures from 2008 and 2009), and I find it a little too long. But she did alright.

I’ve been thinking about why I haven’t been inspired to write anything at all. This blog has been of absolutely no use the past few days, and it’s sad because I created it as some sort of mental exercise and this means something, right? That I haven’t been using my brain as much as I want to. I haven’t been using my brain the way I want to. I don’t want to just focus on schoolwork because my life is supposed to be more than that. But all else I’ve been doing is sleeping and eating and breathing and I haven’t seen many of my friends in a while. I am a fashion hermit.

Yesterday, though, I met up with my cute cute friend Kari, and helped her do some shopping for the holidays. It’s fun to just walk around and window shop and buy things I can live without (such as a mirror that looks like a chocolate bar) and just talking about inconsequential things like lipstick and BB cream.

Anyway, I feel that I must do something about this blog. I don’t want it to be merely a journal with just pages and pages of text because I know I can do more than that. And I notice that I’ve been doodling a bit more than usual recently so…maybe I can post a drawing a day/week? Doesn’t have to be a proper illustration, I suppose. Just to keep track of…improvement, because it’s been nothing but stagnant on that front for years now.

Yes, I will do that. Here’s one to start. This isn’t a new sketch (rather old, actually. I remember drawing this last year), but I found it just sitting idly in my hard drive, so I figured I might as well post it. Click to enlarge.

Also, not smooth segueing at all, but the number of times I type the word “I” is upsetting. Dunno why.

Filed under: Everyday Life, Illustrations , Boredooooom, Illustration, Shopping

I am a pretty pretty flower.

Haven’t been in the mood to actually write anything lately. And to think NaNoWriMo just ended! I’ve been wanting to join it, too, but I guess this year isn’t my year. Last year wasn’t, either. I need to really think about this stuff, don’t I?

Anyway, I just felt like sharing this:

Pink hair FTW! ♥♥♥

(And, yes, that is my sports fest shirt from high school even though I never participated in the activities).

Filed under: Me, Photos , Photo, Pink hair!, Vanity

Word of the day: Susurrous

Thinking about Gab makes me feel like there’s a hole somewhere in me, something as inconspicuous as a paper cut. Or a pin prick in shōji doors. And the air just passes through me and I feel chills in my body, but not enough to make me shiver. Just enough to know that something’s amiss, like…I don’t know. Like hearing whispers when there’s nobody around but you.

I feel strange and despite not knowing him well enough as I should have, I miss him. I really, really do.

RIP

Filed under: Musings , Death, Gab, Photo

this is not the ‘interesting’ i had in mind

I feel like microwaved shit.

Filed under: Cai, Me, Musings, Photos , Photo, Stress

candy says

I realised that I haven’t really had a…normal blog entry, so to speak. The type where you recount your day and blahblahblah, among other things and so on and so forth et cetera et cetera et cetera.

I kinda wanna do it right now, like my fingers are really itching to type something. But seeing as how my first two sentences (in which one is a fragment, I think) are beyond crap and it took me quite a long time to think those up, I know I can’t do it. I also don’t think I can continue beyond this point if I were to go that direction because, honestly, nothing important happened today.

No idea where time went today. I remember waking up pretty late (10ish), checking my e-mail, going down for breakfast (a panini. Yum), reading a book and then…I don’t know. The sad thing is that most days without school go the same. My life is so exciting, it kills me.

Last week, though, a package from my uncle living in the States arrived, along with it 3 whole packs of Starburst for myself (in which my face turned into this: 8D), and my BRAND NEW HEADPHONES.

I’m crazy about headphones. Now I’ve currently only got 5 (a black Panasonic, a white retro-looking Panasonic, an off-white Wesc Maraca, Green Zumreeds, and the new ones). One of them is plain black and I am planning to customise it in the near future. With sparkles (because Carolina’s is my friend and they’ve got lots of ~sparkles~ for sale there). Yes.

Anyway, here are my new headphones! (And they go amazingly well with the Starburst lol)

Also, you are greeted by a fresh-faced Cai without a fringe/bangs and with massive eye bags! How often does this happen, yeah?

Well, fine. People see me a lot without makeup (and eye bags). It’s not that I’m too lazy to put the stuff on. I’m just lazy enough to think that the act of removing everything after is too troublesome, specially when coming home from school and an hour-long commute.

But without a fringe!

!!!

I suppose the number of exclamation points used in context will give you a clue as to how much people see me without a mop of hair covering my sad forehead and terrible eyebrows. Which is almost close to never, by the way.

Anyway, that is all I’ve really got to share. Like I said a couple times before, my life isn’t particularly interesting so…I dunno. Maybe something’ll happen tomorrow.

Listening to: Asobi Seksu – New Years

Filed under: Cai, Everyday Life, Me, Photos , Boredooooom, Headphones, Photo

I would like to feel better

in

every

possible

way

Filed under: Cai, Everyday Life, Everyday Life, Me, Photos , Photo, Stress